Love - a wildly misunderstood although highly desirable malfunction of the heart which weakens the brain, causes eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise and the lips to pucker. ~Author Unknown

....so I was told to write down everything about our engagement... because in a few short years, they'll be blurred with married life, children, family, friends... etc etc etc...

so here goes

**We got engaged, in front of the reflection pool at the SLC temple

**We put a deposit on his ring, before we got engaged... on our way to the square, we made a stop at Massey's to put money down.

** I told him that I loved him on a Tuesday night, and didn't talk to him again until FRIDAY!! Scared the crap outta myself when I didn't hear from him for 2 FULL DAYS!!

** He told me he loved me via text message first, with the emoticon (\--/_) on conference Sunday, April 6th.

 ** We went to go and just "look" at rings so he had an idea of what I wanted, but then we found it, put money down, and came back and got it after it was sized... 

 ** I honestly never ever ever thought that I would marry someone like Josh... and that I would make it to the temple to be married... I honestly, in my heart of hearts, thought for sure that I would get married civilly then sealed a year or so later. So lucky that I found a guy that loved me enough to stop me from myself and self destruction. 

** I met the Bastian cousins at cousins dinner in February... Apparently Sarah Bastian (Brandon's wife) saw spires in my eyes the first time she met me... and I got brownie points for the pink hair that Josh failed to mention, so he lost points.

 ** Our wedding announcements took FOREVER for me to get the look I wanted... and I love them.

** Our invitations struggled getting out "on time" but I decided that word of mouth and the important of important people will be there.  

**We had a wedding planner lady, meaning I have had very little stress in regards to the wedding reception.  HOWEVER... she (Suzie) was interesting to work with, caused slight stress as to the timing of things, but overall, it (I think) was worth it. 

** I don't show excitement too much... I honestly don't know how.  BUTI've never been more excited than I am right this moment... and every morning for the past few days, I've woken up more and more excited, and missing Josh more and more.. that's a good sign... right?

 **We got our apartment, FINALLY, which has been my constant stress for the past few months.  It's a little more money than I was hoping for, and we haven't moved in, and don't have a move in date as of yet (we're hoping next week... Tuesday?) but it's a nice 1 bedroom with new carpet, tile, and remodeled bathroom... We're hoping the neighbors are nice.

**Started BC and haven't really gained weight... /crossing fingers

**Have done more to show the people in my life that I love them, cherish them, and am so grateful for them in my life...

*I receive my Temple Endowment on Friday, August 13, 2010 in the Oquirrh Mountain Utah Temple.  I am nervously calm about it... And I feel ready... at least as ready as I am gonna be.  I could've done more to prepare myself, but honestly, I'm still a little more than nervous, but more excited nervous... and I was totally fine until a girl I work with went thru to receive her temple endowments, and freaked herself out... I'm hoping that I won't.  So lots of praying and fasting has been in the works.

** We've struggled being engaged more than I had anticipated.  But I am so grateful to know that it is doable.. and that with the Lord's hand in our lives, we are able to make it to the temple to be sealed forever. 

I'm sure there are a lot of other things I could mention.  But right now, that's all I can think of.  I'm going to try to do better with this, because I don't keep a journal... but I do like going back to read my random and sometimes "deep" thoughts...

Thanks for all my family and friends for keeping me sane and focused on the end goal.  And thanks to my Josh.  I don't think I deserve you after all the hell I put myself thru, but I am so grateful that I get to keep you.  

and yes, You get to keep me.